I have the fine opportunity to work extra hard for the company that gave me a job right out of college. So many people have had extremely difficult times finding work. So I am very grateful to have a job. I am trying build the foundational block for my position at work. No one has ever had this position here. New territory. New challenges. And boy do the challenges abound. It has been a real stretch for me to dive into this unknown territory. Not only is it new to me, but it’s really a new field all together. Interaction Designer. That’s my new title. Anyways, here I sit at work on another Sunday afternoon, trying to finish up a project. What I’m asked to do is vague. The people asking for the project can’t tell me exactly what I need to deliver. So I am defining (for the most part) what I have to deliver. I think it’s far more work than anyone knew, and I’m sure I’m missing a lot as well. But, I guess I better get to it.
I’ve been riding my bike the past couple days. Everywhere I go, I go on my bike. Not so much because I want to save the planet, but because the brakes on my car need a fixin.
I’m enjoying my bike rides though. I appreciate where I’m going and what I’m getting a little more. The exercise isn’t bad either. Being out in the warm sun, feeling the breeze, and working my muscles are all making me want to ride my bike every chance I get.
Also, I had a nice chat with David Peiffer and Josiah (don’t know last name) about P90X. I’m more inspired to start again. Yes. I will do P90X…. sometime. haha.
Hello world. And by world, I mean the three or four of you who read this. Actually no one reads this… cause I don’t post. HA. Well here I am. It’s a quarter after four, and I can’t sleep. Again. I’m terribly stressed. Over what? I’m not completely sure.
I actually don’t feel much like writing, but I thought I would try doing this some more. Most of my posts from here on out may be really short.
Ugh.
I just wish I could sleep at night.
oh. I did just watch Twilight and New Moon. They were actually pretty good (minus the shameless boys taking off their shirts to reveal their newly developed ripped abs scenes). But yeah, I’m excited about the third one coming out soon.
I’m feeling more myself today. I think it’s because I decided to. Lately I’ve been realizing that I have a lot of control over how I feel. This makes me believe more and more that I shouldn’t react to things or make big decisions based on my emotions (which is what I’ve been doing the past month or so). Emotions can be mucky and distorting. They have the potential to get you in a lot of trouble (if not only with yourself and your vision). They do not tell the complete story of your situation. I think it’s important to step outside of your feelings and try to look at things with a fresh eye. Ask the Lord how he sees a particular situation. Honestly, it’s probably a lot different than the way you or I see things. But it’s great, ’cause he wants to show us how he sees things. You just gotta ask. See, he likes when we ask. He likes that we care about his opinion.
Today, I’m deciding to be myself and I’m not giving in to the lie that says I’m not doing anything worth while and that I’m a failure. It’s just not true. I’m am the Lord’s and he loves me for who I am. He wants to speak into my life. So I’m going to let him.
“The things you put off are the things you need to do the most.”
This quote seems to be defining me as of late. I’m done being on the shit end of it. Starting today, I’m doing what I have needed to do for a while. I’ll let you know how it goes when I’m done.
i’m currently working late. on my own will. at my own will? on? at? dunno. anyways, it’s all off the clock. woo. almost done.
so i’m gonna go home. take a nice steamy shower. and watch some harry potter. as a reward for working too many hours.
i have more work than i can handle. job & freelance.
ahhh
Currently Listening to: Minus the Bear’s “El Torrente”
Currently Obsessed with: LOST
Recently Started: P90X (again)
Recently got a: Tumblr account (www.esau.tumblr.com) You should check it out. So far I’ve posted some truly incredible videos found out there on the world wide web. I’m sure I’ll be posting some art and reposting sweet pics of sun shining behind pretty models with natural lens flares. It’ll be great. Come join me.
esau.tumblr.com
Hey everyone. I’d just like to say I had the best weekend with my family. My parents, Ben and his gf, Kate came up to Boone and we all stayed in a cabin (with a wonderful view of Grandfather Mountain). Since Ben was in India on Christmas, we did our family Christmas this weekend. I brought my little table top Christmas tree and we put our presents around it.
My favorite things about this weekend:
- Mom sitting on my motorcycle… lookin pretty cool
- Playing Apples to Apples, Origins and Telephone-Pictionary
- Jacuzzi
- Traditional Christmas Sukiaki meal
- Gift opening
- Showing Kate around Boone and Blowing Rock (she’s never been up here)
- Sleeping in a King sized bed with Ben (and still having more room than I do in my own bed).
- Being around my loving family who I love more and more every day
I could not have asked for a better weekend or family with whom to spend it.
Xmas in January
Mom on my Motorcycle
I know it’s a little late… but….
I’ve never been good at New Years resolutions. They always been like, I’m going make a new drawing every. day. this. whole. year. I draw a self portrait the first day. Forget the second day. Give up for the rest of the year. This year is different. I have three that are a bit more flexible. They don’t involve having to do something every. day. of the whole. year. So I’m excited to get better at the following:
- Spend my money wisely
- Work out regularly (starting with P90X)
- Read the entire Bible
Here’s a neat site to help you if you can’t think of a good New Years resolution.
http://moninavelarde.com/newyears/
I’m on my Christmas vacation. Wow, I really needed this. I feel like I have a little more time to breath and listen and think. It’s been great so far… seeing lots of family and eating better than usual. My brother is still in India, so Christmas was a bit different. Can’t wait till he comes back in a couple weeks. I also had to drive back to Boone for one day of work. Strangely, I really enjoyed it.